Depression, seperation anxiety, can't let go of the past...please help.?

I am afraid to say that you are indeed very depressed. So much has been happening to you lately that you are feeling overwhelmed and not able to cope. And your boyfriend doesn't seem to be helping either. You need to be loved and pampered and if he finds that hard, maybe he doesn't love you enough and you deserve better. The first step is to seek professional help. You may be put on anti-depressants for a while, but for a full recovery you will have to work on your self-esteem. A psychologist willl help you in that area. I wish you the best of luck.